Write a new post in response to today’s one-word prompt.
Every so often one of these prompts hits a nerve, and it’s been my policy to avoid it or evade it to maintain my image of being gung-ho and invulnerable. And what a load of b/s that really is.
I suppose it’s in there somewhere or I couldn’t dig it up on demand: an alter-ego that shoots its opinionated mouth off and has a bit of a slash and burn to pretend it’s courageous and undaunted. But it doesn’t fool me. One of my cousins pointed out not long ago that in childhood, I was the shadow in the background, and in the flesh and blood reality of who I am, nothing much has changed. I am not a hermit for nothing.
And the truth is that sometimes, keeping up this online facade is an effort too far. Sometimes I want to sit here and weep all over the page about my lack of confidence, my failures, the loneliness of knowing that as a person, I have nothing to offer. But as my mother used to say, we have our pride.