Have You Never Been Mellow?
After a long day at work or school, what are your favorite ways to wind down and decompress?
For reasons best known to itself – or possibly not – WordPress has failed to send the latest Daily Prompt winging its way to my inbox – or indeed to my Reader – although I did get two copies of something urging me to create a custom email address.
I don’t take this personally, you understand: to WordPress, I am as a grain of sand, albeit one busily creating pearls in oysters, unbeknownst to it. Technical hitches happen, possibly teething problems with their new, all-singing, all-dancing presentation.
But if you’re already feeling a bit jaded – winter’s coming, you’d like to be writing a novel but you can’t come up with a sustainable plot and what’s more you can’t find an agent for the first one – it does tend to stir up those snarling voices that say who do think you’re kidding and get a life!
I enjoy blogging, and I love reading other people’s blogs. But I started this to promote the novel that agents don’t want, which I’ve now removed from the site. I kept going because it entertained me and kept me writing – essential to my general wellbeing. And maybe that’s all I should want out of life at my age. But it isn’t.
One way and another, I’ve never fulfilled what others considered to be my potential. Perhaps the ‘others considered’ had a lot a lot to do with it, but it’s a bit late to bother about that now when now is all there is, time’s running out and the idea of frittering the rest of my life away has all the appeal of black pudding. I’m not looking for fame and fortune – I’m not stupid – but a sense of achievement would be good.
So I shall now go for a swim and think about what this all means (beyond the obvious; WordPress stuffed up). If I come up with an answer, I’ll let you know.